"SHADOWS AND LIGHT: AN UNBREAKABLE BOND"

Written By: Stone Angel

 

Please see Prologue for disclaimer, ratings and explanations. ^_^

AN: Remember the rings?...

This last part is just a poetic conclusion. Not a poem, just poetic. I think it ends it well. It would have to, ne? Being the end and all? ^_^

//TEXT// = written word

 

 

SHADOWS AND LIGHT: AN UNBREAKABLE BOND:

Epilogue 2: HERE TO FORE UNKNOWN

Heero sat beneath the tree, using what little moonlight filtered through the leaves to illuminate the small journal in which he was writing. He was determined to document everything new to him, keep records, a strange link to humanity, associating what he was once, to what he was now.

Duo was many feet ahead of him, sitting near the edge of a cliff and gazing at the stars.

For a moment, Heero smiled to himself at how beautiful Duo was in the moonlight, before returning his gaze to the last few pages he had written, the first of what he hoped were many to come.

//My name is Heero Yuy. Well, it used to be. It still is, but I’m kind of unsure whether or not it matters now. Duo, my "better half", says that I can have whatever name I want now, but he and I both like my current one. Duo’s name is not his birth name. Neither of us knows his birth name, or if he has recalled it, he hasn’t shared it with me. But it is not important. It’s just a name after all. People are what matter, ne?

And that’s just it, isn’t it? The reason I’m writing this.

I believe I’m still a person. Though changed, I still feel like me. Just…different. A lot has changed. Not all of it good. I miss the sun. And ketchup. But then I tried a little of it. Not even enough to make me ill, just enough to get the taste and found it foul. No matter the looks, I find that nothing is quite as good as blood. And no matter how I miss things, they are not always good for me. Like the sun. I burned myself when I was new. Just the back of my hand, a test to see if I was a day-walker, hoping against hope, but found that I was not. I can live with that. Afterwards Duo scolded me as he held my injured hand in his. But he knew it was a decent test for a good reason.

We moved to Los Angeles. The irony wasn’t lost on me after he made me. I find irony bitter sweet.

I feel different than I did when I was human. I don’t like using that word to describe how I was. I prefer "mortal", but that is because I still feel human at heart. Though it won’t beat. I miss my heartbeat. Duo misses it more. Everything is intensified and amplified. Feelings, sounds, sights, smells. Sensation is a whole new sense it seems. Everything has become at least twice as strong as it had once been. It has led to some mind-blowingly good sex.

I found out really fast what it is like to be cold inside, not just outside. It is a strange feeling. Not unpleasant per se. Just…there. I find that cold doesn’t bother me anymore_which is good because it is winter and we are saving loads of money on heating bills_and I can walk about in the frigid night air in nothing more than my tank top and shorts and not be uncomfortable. Duo still makes me wear my jacket however. Our body heat lasts longer if we are insulated from cold. I shiver sometimes, but Duo explained that that is a normal reaction. It will take my body some time to adjust to this. And until then I might shiver every now and then even if I don’t feel cold. Though cold doesn’t bother me, I find that I like to be warm much better. I drink a lot of tea, though it does not do as much as blood, and take hot showers. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the day to see that Duo, awakened by my shivering, is holding me tightly and trying to warm me with what little body heat he has to offer.

After Duo had sired me, there was much to do. I’m thankful that he was there for me; I know that if I had been put in the situation he had been when he was younger, I would have died. He’s been here, my touchstone, through the whole ordeal.

The thirst is something I never could have imagined in my wildest dreams. It is like an entity that is always there with me, even when I am full. It is frightening; it would be so easy for me to fuck up. I take three a night. That no doubt is the reason Duo brought us to L.A. More targets so I would be able to feed enough. He says that fledglings need more blood than any vampire. And after feeding, I am STILL hungry. I wonder how Duo does it. How he was so close to me all those times and did not give into the urge that all but screams at me when I am within a few yards of a mortal. I hope to learn.

Despite the hunger, hunting is hard for me to do. I was never very friendly with the idea of taking someone’s life. I had lost my family to that. But he makes it worth it. And he gives me the worst of the worst people he finds. He taught me how to look into their souls, minds and hearts, gauge what is there. Some of the people… I feel that I am doing them a favor by ending their lives. It is sickening, but true. And the fact that he only lets me kill those people helps me not feel so guilty. He takes the rest. The ones that have to go but are not as heinous in their convictions. It gets easier every night. I don’t think I’ll ever enjoy it, but I can do it. After all, I WANTED this. I wanted to never leave him. And I knew exactly what that meant and what I would be getting into. We hunt together. I am new still, not even a week old. So he hunts with me. Teaches me exactly what to do and what must be done to cover our tracks. He never leaves my side. I think he might be trying to protect me from something, possibly myself. When he was new, he went a little insane, not knowing if he was dreaming or awake as strange things kept happening and he saw and heard and felt things never before experienced. No doubt, he is trying to save me from that. But I don’t object. I am glad that he is there each time. I will hunt on my own when he deems me ready.

But for now, it is late, and I am waiting for him to return while I write this. One of the joys of living in L.A. is the fact that so many stores are open late, often at all hours. We went out before tonight’s hunt to buy a few things at the store. Christmas is a few weeks away and we intend to celebrate it. Is that sacrilegious? Vampires celebrating a Christian holiday? If so, I don’t give a shit. We both love the holiday and the fact that the lights are exquisite when you look at them right, doesn’t hurt. We shop together. I find myself terrified to be left alone with a group of people. Like they know. I’m constantly worried and am paranoid to a new extreme. So he never leaves my side when we are around people.

Right now, he’s talking to himself at the edge of the cliff ahead of me. I know that sounds strange, but I think he is saying goodbye to someone. Probably Solo. He is looking at the stars. He’s upset about Changing me, but I know he is happy that we will always be together. I am as well.

My god, how things are different. When I was new, I found myself just staring at random objects, ESPECIALLY pictures and lights. I still do. I don’t even realize I’m doing it until Duo makes some joke about it. How could I not have noticed how beautiful everything was? Each and every object I see seems to radiate its own beauty, even crude objects such as rocks. I have actually sat and gazed at a crystal glass for ten minutes before realizing how much time went by. The way the glass bends the light and yet reflects it…it is truly amazing. Sounds are also changed. People’s voices sound different to me. I can hear emotions in them so much clearer. And things are much louder. Emotions were a BIG change. If I am sad, I’m not just a little sad, I am DEVASTATED. If I’m happy, I have to check the impulse to giggle insanely and run around like a five-year-old. If I am excited about something, I have to forcibly stop myself from trying to get to it sooner or just being antsy and squirming with anticipation. My curiosity has taken on a new level. If I see something that I find intriguing, I HAVE to watch it and see what will happen or determine what exactly it is or is causing it. I freaked out a few feuding couples this way before Duo led me away, muttering something about "scaring the straits". And I find that I am amorous about nearly everything. I find it funny that ningens call vampires The Undead. I've never felt so alive.

Duo has explained that all of this is normal and that I will become accustomed to it.

I hope I never do.//

He stood, putting the small journal and pen into his jacket pocket, when saw Duo stand and turn his bright violet eyes to him.

*

"Oi, Tomodachi." Duo threw a small stone over the cliff into the waves.

He sat upon the ground, looking down at the shimmering ocean below. The moon was half mast, it’s light shining upon the ground and waves in a way that was life mimicking art. The waves crashed against the jagged rocks below, an almost musical sound in his ears, a roar of nature. He sat and enjoyed the smell, sights and sounds of the small world around him for long moments, content with doing nothing.

"Long time, no see, ne?" He asked the stars.

This was something he had done for years. Until he met Heero. He would talk to Solo, unsure if he was heard, but unwilling to be silent to his best friend. ‘God. But now…’ He sighed as he threw another rock over the precipice. "I have to stop doing this." He said aloud.

He tilted his head back and looked upon the stars. "I have to leave. You can’t hear me anyway. I know that now. You’re no longer up there. I wonder… Did you come back to me because I never gave up hope and kept talking to you? Was that the reason you returned to me?"

He chuckled mirthlessly as he threw another rock over the edge. "…I am leaving, Solo. Heero is waiting for me." He closed his eyes, basking in the star and moonlight. "And we have forever."

After another moment of silence, he spoke in a whisper. "Sayonara, tomodachi."

He stood then, keeping his eyes closed for a moment before turning and walking back to where Heero was leaned against a tree a couple dozen yards back.

When Duo searched for it, a sapphire blue aura was now obvious as it encompassed his lover’s form. It had eluded him for all that time, and now he could see it as clearly as his own. It was beautiful, a deep blue that was delicately laced with indigo’s and whites around its edges. He had been sired well, as well as he could have been by Duo’s blood, and he was strong and beautiful, his Ki powerful.

Letting the aura drop from his selective sight, he smiled brightly at his lover as he walked towards him.

Heero smiled back. "Baka."

Nodding, Duo leaned forward, stretching slightly and kissing his lover passionately for a moment before Heero’s stomach growled. He pulled away with a small smirk. "Hungry?" He ran a hand under Heero’s shirt, over the scarless skin of his lover’s abdomen.

"Ah." Heero nodded, his eyes shimmering in the moonlight that filtered down through the leaves and branches of the tree under which they stood to cast them in dim, silver light. The light was soft and reflected just barely off their rings as Duo held Heero’s hand in his.

"Let’s go hunting."

Heero nodded again and Duo led him away from the cliff towards the small uprising that over looked the city.

They stood and admired the lights for long moments before Duo smiled to him and began walking forward again.

‘There is much to teach Heero.’ He thought as he looked sidewise at his lover who seemed amazed with the simple act of moonlight reflecting off of grass, and Duo knew he was. ‘And I have all eternity to teach him.’ ‘"Ai shite ieru, Heero-kun."’

Heero smiled back to him. ‘"Ai shite ieru, Duo-kun."’

Duo smiled as he looked back at the stars. ‘I used to think eternity was so long and dreary. But now…’ He looked to his side again to see Heero still smiling at him. He grinned back. ‘It seems… So precious.’

The two walked hand in hand into the night, wearing their matching rings with "Forever" inscribed into the inside of the bands, knowing that whatever may come, they would always have each other.

All was as it should be.

THE END

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(falls over and dies)

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Well, Mina, there it is. The monster has finally ended. Didn't think you'd see it happen ne? Jeez, *I* didn't and I was the one writing it. ^_^'

A few notes that I have to put in here for credit so I don't get already broke ass sued:

(shuffles through papers) Um… Ok, songs. There were a lot in there, ne? They are, in order of appearance: (Song, Artist, CD)

No More, No Less, Collective Soul, Dosage.
Needs, Collective Soul, Dosage.
December, Collective Soul, Collective Soul.
Bleeders, The Wallflowers, Bringing Down the Horse.
One Headlight, The Wallflowers, Bringing Down the Horse.
Macy's Day Parade, Greenday, International Super Hits.
Good Riddance(Time of Your Life), Greenday, International Super Hits.
Always, Saliva, Back into Your System.
Rest In Pieces, Saliva, Back into Your System.
Run, Collective Soul, Dosage. (Hey, it's a good CD.)
The Scientist, Coldplay, A Rush of Blood to the Head.

And My absolute favorite song: Only One by Lifehouse, No Name Face.

A few lines were taken from:

Buffy, Angel, Spinal Tap, Get Real, American Beauty, and Children of the Night by Mercedes Lackey(Skitty is obsessed with the author and she forced me to read the only vamp one she had shortly after we met). It was... Interesting.

Oooh, and I have the honor of plugging a fic for a friend who asked me to. It's kinda like mine but not AU. If anyone liked this story, you have to read Alana Winter's work. She has a vamp GW fic as well entitled: 'Embrace the Night'. It is short in comparison but a good story. Alana kicks ass, and if you don't go read her stuff, you're a horrible excuse for a Yaoi fan. So say I. (glares)

Again, I didn't want to do the epilogues. A friend made me do it. (Stomps around all angry like)

Heero: (Fanged grin)

Oh, shut up! Little smart ass. (Walks away, grumbling about kicking Skitty's ass for leaving her alone with own creations)

Well, write me? And I am totally prepared to be yelled at. (ducks)

For those of you who have survived all this, you are truly grand. ^_^ I hoped you liked the fic and insane rambling. ^____^ I did.

Ja ne, Mina. ^_~

~Leia

 

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